Creativity has always been a big part of my life, I think really it’s a part of everyone’s life, everyone is a creator of something for some reason.
I have come to realise that in a lot of ways it restores hope which is the most valued feature for me. At the moment I have a great love for blurry styled 35mm images, although I remember when I studied photography I used to get told off, my photos were never “in focus enough”. So either I can’t use a camera or I just prefer the idea that something can be bold enough to stand out in a blur. But more than that, the viewer is bold enough to view it for more than its worth.
I like to think this is my philosophy on people and life, such that we can accept something with the knowledge that we can take what we want without the constant pressure to see something that is presented to us. I wanted to reflect these kind of pressures that women feel with society and how we are overly paranoid about how to display ourselves. Personally for me and for other people this has led to social anxiety and depression which I have been battling for a long time.
I choose to shoot in a caravan to reflect that women can still feel like they’re being watched even far away from their inner circle and surrounded by fields. I chose the 70’s style because they represented a lot of freedom in contrast with the 60’s era where women still had to be seen a certain way. For instance, I tried to invert the cliché the media often portrays that if you wear glasses you must be smart and nerdy. Instead highlighting that being smart doesn’t necessarily mean on the straight and narrow or that having a PhD means you have a PhD in life lessons. I look directly into the camera to showcase that women still want to be seen, but reinforce the idea that a postmodern women doesn’t quite know how to be “seen”. And I hope with my three part series that I can reflect how not just women and girls feel but how everyone feels being a part of today’s society.